Day 39 ... Yoga and Philosophy

    1 hour and 45 minutes later, I am done with my yoga workout for the day. I was really looking forward to this one today. Today and yesterday have been a rollercoaster ride of emotion and I was really hoping a nice calm yoga workout would help center me a bit. It started off a little rocky because I couldn't get the PS3 remote to work. So, I turned on the tv and started to watch The Biggest Loser instead of working out. There must be irony in there somewhere, right? As I sat there watching a 400 lb man cry, I thought to myself I should really be working out. Luckily, the remote started working so I could actually start the dvd. Then, it was onto Yoga world!!!

     There were a few moments during the workout when I was actually proud of myself. I was, gently,  pushing myself further into positions I had had difficulty with before. I could see the differences and how far I've come. Certain muscles were not screaming quite as loudly as they have been in the past. I have always had hip flexibility problems during some poses ... especially half moon and twisting half moon. It was still hard but I'm managing to get into a bit better now and stay in it a bit longer before the knife starts twisting itself into my hip. That's a good sign, yeah? When it came time to do Crow pose (which I usually skip), I decided to give it a shot. It has been a really long time since I have done Crow. It's always been a pain in the butt for me. Weak arms and slipping and sliding. This time, i got up on my arms and was able to hold myself up for awhile. I slipped off a few times, but i was able to get back up a bit before my arms started shaking too much to hold me. So, I was proud.

     By the end of the workout, I was feeling a bit more calm, relaxed, focused and overall peaceful. I realize the things in life I worry about are fleeting and mostly of my own creation. No matter what happens in my life, I will still be the same person ... always changed for the better, if changed at all. No matter how risky something is or how much it may hurt in the long run, life is far too short to be afraid of anything. I firmly believe that my future will be a happy one, no matter where I am, who I am with or what I am doing. The alternative is not an option.

    So, here is to the pursuit of love and happiness, wherever it may lead.